I just found this thread and thought how wonderful to have such a supportive community!!!
So as a non-smoker, I promise to not judge you and not impose any 'Shoulds'.
Instead, I'm just gonna say that I'm here to also support whatever you wish to do... if you need to chat, I'm pretty much always either here on RVO (so PM me) or on Facebook.
Good luck to you both and to all others who are going through personal projects!